looking for hope

Hi just looking if anybody can share some light or have any similar stories to mine? 

So I'm 24 years old and been with my partner for 8 years, we wanted to start a family so decided to start tying in 2015 anyways was pregnant in December however sadly ended in mc at 6 weeks pregnant.

Carry on to July 2016 and was pregnant again however started bleeding brown and was going to hospital every 48 hours to do routine hcg levels were rising but not doubling like they should got booked in for a transvaginal scan and confirmed not live ectopic pregnancy in right tube I was devastated to say the least they managed to treat me with methotrexate which I had to get 2 injections as my hormone levels were not falling like they should, that meant I had to wait 6 months for methotrexate to leave my system before trying again.....

Fast forward to February 2017 pregnant! from the get go I knew something wasn't quite right as I was bleeding every single day went to hospital they confirmed pregnancy took hcg had to go back in 48 hours not much they could do as I was so early they wouldn't be to see anything on ultrasound. 48 hours later hormone levels doubled nurse rang me And told me so far so good with the hormone levels rising as they should and to come back two weeks later to get first transvaginal scan anyways I kept bleeding and just put it to the back of my mind as the nurse told me a lot of women bleed in early pregnancy. The day of the transvaginal and couldn't see anything in uterus so technican thinks maybe I'm still too early and to come back 10 days later to see if they can get another look and may be 6 weeks by then.

10 days later still bleeding on my way to get another gruelling scan and showed live ectopic 7 weeks 5 days in my left tube the lady told me to sit in the side room I automatically knew what was going to happen as have been through this all before she asked me if I had anything to eat today which I hadn't as was still Morning and no sooner did I know it was rushed into Laproscopic surgery to take away the ectopic pregnancy I was numb.. why me? another ectopic in another tube? They removed my left tube and found a little endometriosis. I cried and cried and cried because I thought wow this is the reason for my ectopics happening I felt relieved as I knew this has to be the reason I am having ectopics and a miscarriage. Went back 8 weeks later for follow up appotiment the gyney told me it could be the endometriosis but he doubts it as it is so little and I have no symptoms of someone with endo, he told me my right tube the only one I have left has scar tissue of the last ectopic I had!! And my tube is also narrow at the bottom end which may cause the egg not entering the uterus and getting stuck he told me I should try again and see what happens from then and if no luck or a bad outcome again he will remove my right tube and I will be tubeless and will qualify for ivf as we have no live children. 

I guess I just feel so alone at the moment it's very hard for me to come to terms with what has happened I feel so unlucky and I can't see any light at the end of the tunnel

I am desperate to start a family with my partner I feel like I am useless

I'm hoping somebody has a ear to listen to this long story and maybe has success story's going through something similar?

Thanks ladies 

x