It seems the further I get along in my 1st trimester (9 weeks tomorrow) the worse my food aversion and nausea gets. There's very little I can eat. All I wanted today was a turkey sandwich. My amazing boyfriend went and got some turkey and made me a sandwich. I took one bite and spit it out.

Then I ugly cried for like 20 minutes because I'm soooo hungry and nothing sits well. I've eaten twizzlers today and threw up about 5 times now. I'm trying to drink as much water as possible but it upsets my empty stomach too.

I'm so blessed to have such an amazing, supportive man but he feels so defeated in helping me eat. He's truly a rock of a man and gets me anything that I can possibly keep down. He helps suggest things that I think I can keep down and really helps me find something. But after eating it, keeping it down some, and then throwing it up, it just becomes another food aversion.

I'm so hungry and nauseous! I feel defeated too and trying so very hard to keep my emotions in check and not complain too much but I'm losing my control. I even cried and told my SO I hope he doesn't leave me because I'm such a mess. He's so understanding and amazing. I love him so very much for being so strong for me.

Does anyone have any suggestions? It's my first pregnancy and I feel so out of control and defeated. I'm angry all the time for no reason and so confused as to why my body is betraying me. I know it's just the pregnancy but idk what I'm up against! My first appt isn't for another week where I'll finally have info about what I should be "looking forward" to. Friends kind of help but everyone is different.

If anything, thanks for letting me vent. I really needed to get it all out! I'm really not trying to complain, I'm very blessed, just confused and getting defeated!