I lost my first pregnancy at 5 weeks 2 days ago. It ripped my heart in two and it's something I will hope for the rest of my life that noone ever has to go through.

One of my beautiful friends who has had two miscarriages and 8 years of fertility issues is finally pregnant and healthy. She bought Thomas the Teddy after her first miscarriage and he helped her get through the rough times and now he belongs to me.

I cannot thank her enough, this gift is something that will give me more hope and help than I can explain.

Thomas will be my friend until it is time to pass him on to someone else and I hope I can be as wise and comforting and my friend has been to me.

Tonight, although broken into many pieces, my heart is warm.

It doesn't matter that it was early or that I only knew of my pregnancy for four days, it hurts beyond all measure and having friends around me is exactly what I need right now.

And my friends are the best.