Last Friday I told my boyfriend of 6 years that I had been having an affair with the same person I had with 2 years ago when we were split up. Throughout our relationship, I've been unfaithful, so has he, but never physically. When I was younger I was raped... I somehow feels this links to my need to accept the wrong attention from guys like I have since I was little to feel important. I take full responsibility for my Decisions I made. I feel away from God and turned to the wrong things. I'm glad I told my boyfriend even when I didn't have to... I'm working on myself now to find who I am in God.. However, I am not split from my partner and am in total heartbreak because it's taken me so many times of failure to realize what I want finally. Now it may be too late.. He's Asked that I give him time to think. I'm human and we all make bad calls.. Some worse than others. What do you suggest I do to pass time and to make me stronger in the Lord? I've been reading my bible and listening to sermons constantly. Pray for me please.. I really want to prove that I am a good woman despite my failures. I hope my ex can forgive me like Jesus has enough to move on and Try a new.