Today's Report

Well as of now I am currently waiting to move in with my husband. My husband is in the Military and I love him to death. However I have one month until I move in. I'm really excited yet a little scared. I don't know how it will be to live with him now that we are married. Idk how to explain, i have to much feelings and thoughts that I want to vent. I just feel like not being with my husband makes me paranoid because I don't know what he does or who he is with. He doesn't really like to speak to me on the phon, FaceTime, nor text. He's weird idk. I feel like I don't get the attention I want or deserve I suppose. Like do you get what I mean? I barely get much love thru the phone, he is stationed in another state. There is a long distance marriage but it will be all over in a month. We have been married for 7 months. Am I wrong for thinking this? I keep telling myself it's because I don't have friends here at home, all I do is work and go home, work and go home nothing else. And this, I think is why I stress over not getting a text or a call from him everyday? I just need to keep my mind occupied these few 6 weeks or so until I move. But it's so difficult when I have no one to speak to, vent to, hang out with, or someone who keeps me from thinking about my husband. #Iworrytomuch this is very embarrassing because I feel like this is something stupid, but it bothers me to a point where I become sad and no energy, no motivation, nothing. I used to be so happy, idk what happened, idk what changed. I need advice, I need support, I need and want to cry at times.