just a little vent...

First I want to say that I'm so blessed to be trusted by God again to be pregnant.... This baby means everything to me weather boy or girl I love this baby so much... my iron is low so I'm eating things that will help until my appointment on Monday... so many things are happening right now in my life that aren't good and so far I have been holding myself up really good... stress took a baby from me and till this day I blame myself and is determined not to allow it to happen again .... I pray for this baby everyday and I pray my mindset stay clear no matter what but tonight everything is sitting in... I tell myself not to cry anymore about things but it's only making me weak and tonight tears are falling and I'm trying to stop them... I know this too shall pass because I trust God more than anyone on earth.... I didn't want to vent to people I know and figured you guys would be more support sharing some loving words my way.... I know I'll feel better but keep me and baby in prayers that not stress will harm baby.... again I'm doing the best I can but tonight is just a rough night for me... thanks for reading even if you don't respond but please keep me in prayers...