Life was simple till I was about 15, I only just got with my boyfriend and found out I was pregnant I was terrified had no job neither did he, we had to make the decision to abort as it wasn't fair on the child my parents and his were so supportive but I couldn't raise at child at that age. After I went through awful depression I couldn't look at babies I felt horrendous. After a few years life got easier and my sister found out she was having a little girl due in Sep 15 I was so excited to have a niece we planned Christmas and everything. 2 days after my birthday Aug the doctors told her she had died at 33weeks our lives stopped. My heart definitely skipped a beat that day. She had my amazing niece 3 days later and she was gorgeous beautiful black curly hair! Her face will be in my mind forever. Still trying to grieve for her, my dad has a stroke on the 18th of Dec that year! Why me? I was destroyed! That perfect Christmas we planned had been taken away from us I turned my grief to anger and wanted to know how this could happen. Few months later I fell pregnant, sadly had a miscarriage at 10 weeks. After months of stress I needed a holiday my boyfriend of 8 years had been by my side every step, we booked a holiday with his family! Just what I needed a nice holiday. September the following year we go away, 2 days into our holiday his mum had a heart attack and died pool side, that was life at its worst. She was my second mum I loved her and watching her die and carrying her body away was horrific! When we got back I held the fort, her funeral took place and we went back to normal life. We went to Disney as it was already booked and my boyfriend asked me to marry him. He told me he planned this and his mum saw the ring I was heartbroken but happy. She would have been so happy. The life insurance has helped us with our first home. I wish she was here to see us moving in on Tuesday. With the rest of the money we are going to Disney world where she always wanted us to visit and every second I'll think of her.