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Ok before judging or saying something nasty, I know I messed up. I don't need someone telling me I did wrong or anything. I know. Trust me I know. 
About 5 years ago I cheated on my man. We'd been together a little over a year (though he says he didn't count that first year because of the circumstances) so we'd been together a few months in his eyes. He was gone for awhile and I met a guy and we had sex a couple of times. My man started hearing rumors and asked me about it. I denied it up until the last couple of years when I told him a little bit. Finally a couple of months ago I came clean and told him everything. He'd been really pushing for information and I couldn't keep lying to him so I told him. 
He hasn't completely left me yet but says he hasn't made up his mind as to whether he wants to stay with me and reinvest the time again or just leave and start over with someone new. We have a toddler together and we both hate the thought of splitting up our family. 
My question is, has anyone else gone through something like this? What was the outcome? Is there a way to rebuild trust? Everything about our relationship since then (and taking this scenario out of the equation) has been amazing and we have been engaged since just before our child was born. 
If you have positive suggestions or words please share. Again I don't need anyone telling me I'm an awful person for doing this. Keep scrolling if that's what you've got to say.