We had our beautiful healthy baby girl the beginning of the new year. My husband works 7 days in 7 days off, but he's on night shift and is usually gone about 14 hours a night and I only see him maybe 2 hours before he goes to work which includes him showering and getting ready and such. During his 7 day off stretch we really only have him 3 days because he's adjusting to the new schedules and sleeps most of the day. From when our baby girl was 1 month old until she was 3 months old my husband did that plus another 50 hours during the week he had off so we literally never saw him. I was alone. My mom moved a state away last summer. People who have said they'd be here for me when the baby arrived simply haven't been. Nobody came to help when we brought her home. Nobody cooked for us or cleaned or any of that nice thoughtful things. I feel bad for complaining, but the truth is my daughter is now 4.5 months and I am WORE OUT AND EXHAUSTED. I feel like I do everything and it's not even appreciated or understood by my husband or others... it's just "what a mom is supposed to do"...but I'm human too. I'm not this superwoman I've been playing. I just picked up a part time job doing 10 hours one week and 20 the next. It helps getting out of the house but I still feel defeated because it used to be I wasn't doing enough being a stay at home mom and now it's I have all of those duties plus a part time job and now I'm not making enough money either. Does this get easier? My little one is so fussy...has always been...and really always needs to be held. Recently it's gotten better but not much. I love this crazy life but I need to know there's light at the end of the tunnel!