Month after month, I think it's going to be different. And sometimes it is, like this month - along with my usual debilitating cramps and fatigue, I had nausea so bad I couldn't even make it the fifteen minutes home from work.

I've tried everything. Vitamins, scalding hot baths, cutting out dairy and meat, red raspberry tea, orgasms, acupuncture...and yet my periods are consistently unbearable​. I've had GYNS try and put me on every birth control under the sun, usually they make me depressed or make my symptoms worse. They've also suggested that I should try getting pregnant, or that I just need to live with this because some have it worse than others.

Others have suggested endometriosis, which is even scarier because even when I had health insurance, I couldn't find any specialists who would take my plan to HELP ME.

That's all I want... Help. I don't know what to do anymore. I've been this way for the better part of ten years. I'm so tired of having to miss out on things because I'm crying in bed with a hot water bottle or contemplating calling an ambulance on the bathroom floor.

I don't really know what I'm asking for with this, but I just need help. I can't live like this for another ten years.