recently, my boyfriend treats me like dirt. he is in the process of buying a house, he makes comments like "you'll just be a guest in my new house" and just makes completely rude comments. he throws money that i "owe" him in my face from a year ago from when he paid my phone bill, complains about buying me a drink at the gas station when he makes 40.00/hour and buys 2,000.00 dollars worth of fireworks and other completely unnecessary things. he would rather buy these things than buy things for his son due in september. and he blames it all - "you're not working so i don't want to help you. why would i want to buy you anything" 

i have come to terms that i need to get out of this relationship but with me not working i have no money to get an apartment or anything and i'm honestly embarrassed to go back to my parents and have them pester me everyday about my failed relationship. 

i'm just so terrified to be alone. i just needed to vent..