I see all of your pregnancy announcements, your weekly updates with how big baby is, your name and gender reveals, your baby shower photos, the birth photos and announcements and let me tell you I am so happy for you! But, everyday seeing a new friend announce they're pregnant hurts so much. Knowing most of these babies probably weren't planned when I, as a married woman trying to conceive , hurts so bad. Month after month with no good news, feeling like something is wrong or broken because all of these women around me are seemingly becoming pregnant without planning when I've been trying herbal tea to vitamins to every gimmick out there to try and conceive. I want what you have so bad, I want that pregnancy announcement, those weekly updates, the gender reveal, and so on... And to be honest I'm jealous. I know, I feel so wrong to have these feelings, I wish you the best, but I just can't help it. I want a child. I feel like less of a woman every month I get another negative test. I just want to give my husband a child. I want to feel that love that you feel for a child. I just want to be pregnant, like you.