Feeling really down..

Laura • Married and trying for our first baby for four years! One day❤️
Pregnancy feels like a fairytale to me... This month I feel different and I know for sure i ovulated but I have this feeling that I'm not and I never will be. Plus my husband is leaving for basic training soon and I'm super upset. 8 1/2 long weeks without my husband :( no baby dancing or anything. I hope I'm pregnant this time! I don't know, I'm so scared to get hopeful because I'm so tired of seeing negative after negative for a year and 3 months. Pray for me please 😒 I'm 7 dpo. Patiently waiting to test.