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Danrio
21 months worth of negative tests. 21 months of trying. Almost 12 months of Clomid. At least 6 months of fertility doctors. No answers. No little bundle of joy. 
I don't know how much longer I can do this. The pain every month is worse. Hope is such a double edged sword. 
I know women do this for years and they are my heroes because they must be strong. I don't think I am. 
I feel lost. I feel alone. I feel broken.