Sexually molested

. I can't remember when.. I think I was 13/14years.. I was spending the night at my cousins. My uncle frequently asked if we could give him back massages because he was in constant pain from a previous back injury. Nobody, including his own kids thought anything bad of it. Well. One night my cousin was playing video games and my uncle asked for a massage. He had had a few drinks as he was a boozer. My cousin gave him one first. . He asked him to sit on his lower back. Then we switched. Well after a few minutes he started to slide his hand up my leg and into my shorts while saying it's been too long for him. I jumped off him and locked myself in the bathroom that night. I didn't have access to the phone to call my parents because it wasin his bedroom. I'm pretty sure I was the only one this ever happened to..

I have repressed a lot of memories because of this.. And I never told anyone in fear he would call me a liarand no one believe me.. or worse he would hurt me.

I haven't told anyone.. Not even my husband. This uncle is not in my life anymore.. I stopped going over to my cousins etc. I don't even think he remembers because he was drunk..

I don't want to break my mom's heart over this.. I feel shitty for not telling her but I'll feel like an idiot for not telling her sooner if I do tell her.. He is her brother. They were super close but not anymore (financial drama)..