So my twins were born on may 20th, 34+6, B with 5.2 pounds and  A 4.9pounds. A had to go to NICU had Cpap on the 1st day, next day he was breathing on his own. The plan was him to get some weight, but he had an event while he was sleeping, his oxygen went to 58, 2 days later when I was bottle feeding him it happened again and it was the most terrifying moment of my life. I cry every time I remember it. If he don't have any other event, he will go home on Thursday. I am so terrified to bring him home and happen again. Normally i do The syringe feeding through my nipple (SNS) and never had any problem, but today the nurse wanted me to try breastfeeding for 20 min and then compliment with the bottle. I was terrified of happening again, i was shaking inside me. I was so nervous.

Did anyone went through something similar? How did you overcame your fears?