28 weeks along and I just can't sleep some nights. I can't get comfortable, I hate the tempurpedic mattress, and my husband's snoring is getting on my nerves! Plus I'm always HOT and SWEATING when he wraps around me while sleeping and pushes his bony knees into my legs. I barely have any room on the bed! I have a toddler and 2 nights this past week she woke up at 1am crying, just as I was about to fall asleep. I literally just plugged my phone in the bedroom and was about to lay down in our bed tonight, when my husband walks in, undresses and announces he is going to bed. And he is off work tomorrow!!! He left our 14 month old in the living room by herself, so I had to get up and get her. Grrrrr. He said he got hot grease in eye at work today and can't watch her. His illness trumps my chills, headache, sore throat and sinus infection.

So...I'm sleeping in the guest room..AKA new baby's nursery I haven't set up yet. Not really because I'm angry, but because I want to put my needs first. There's a full size springy bed, a ceiling fan overhead with a remote control. I'm sleeping in here tonight for my sanity! In fact, I think I'll keep this full size bed in here and put my baby's bassinet next to it so I can sleep next to my baby boy while breastfeeding. With our girl, she shared a room with us until 8 months. Sleeping with my husband with his loud snoring and sleep apnea just annoyed me while trying to breastfeed my daughter in our bedroom. I had so much anger at the fact he could sleep through ANYTHING, while my hormones kept me from a truly deep sleep.

I feel a bit guilty, but we gotta do what we can to survive these 2 babies under 2 years old! I have been married 7 years. My husband said I NEED TO sleep in our "marital bed," but I need to keep my sanity while he is snoring away, oblivious to the struggles of pregnancy and new motherhood! I love my husband and he really is a great father most of the time, but he just doesn't "get" it and is so defensive.

Anyways. Thanks for listening to my rant.