I really have nobody to vent to... not close with my family and i have no friends. Im just soo unhappy with my life.... ive been in my relationship 4 1/2 years and i have not accomplished anything in my life then i got pregnant and had my son... i literally have just been home 9 months (living with my boyfriends mom) hes just now getting into a great job and im just here super uncomfortable waiting to move and it just havent happened im literally to the point where i dont leave the room the whole day unless i know his mom is gone. As much as i want my own money and my own everything ive decided to not work for a while. I really want to be here with my son every step of the way i dont trust anybody. No one has ever kept him people have barely even been around him no one holds him or anything im just that mom that wants my son to myself. His dad and i! anyway i just feel sooo unhappy ive been thinking of ways to make money from home, thinking of ways to keep myself busy but ugh im so uncomfortable living here with his mom! Shes so annoying and frustrating..... i guess that just comes from wanting my own space! Please dont judge me... just please give me some ideas to help occupy these long days.... i cant sleep at night knowing that im soo unhappy and uncomfortable with my life.... once i get my teething baby to sleep i just stay up until about 6am then sleep until about 3 pm hoping something has changed in my life i guess..... smh and it hurts me even more that i have no one to speak to when i need them... when i want to escape from this house i have no ones house to go to.... ugh im just reaxy for my life to finally change... my life has been a wreck forever! Do things ever change??? My boyfriend is good to me.... i have a beautiful baby boy and hes literally the only reason i still smile.... id like to find somethings i can do each day with my son.... i thought about some mom and baby yoga... or some classes im not sure!!! Im not here for judgement i just simply needed to clear my mind.... im tired of holding my feelings in....