Feeling so sad

April
I was in a great mood this morning, even though AF decided to show her face. I figured what ever, I'll get my bfp next month. I'm not sure what happened. I was doing my make up, then I realized, I can't make my self look anymore like a "Real" woman. I started feeling very sad because I can put as much make up on as I want and I still feel like I look the same. I feel less of a woman because this journey of ttc has been so hard and so long. As I was putting the make up on, I started thinking maybe I'm not a woman because my body doesn't work the way it's suppose too. I can't get pregnant and I'm watching people around me get pregnant or having babies. I know this post might sound stupid but I can't help my feelings. Infertility sucks. I'm going to try my very best to not get myself down today. Rant over. Thanks for listening