Impatiently impatient

Samantha • TTC baby #2 after a miscarriage in March.
I . Am. So. Depressed.
Well, not really . Mostly just anxious. I never thought I'd "try" to get pregnant. I'm trying for baby number ✌️ And I JUST got off BC on the 2nd of this month and tested today and got a negative . Duhh. I'm so impatient . Am I the only one?