I hate...

That the thought of children has never made my husband have a second thought. I don't know why he wants them so bad. I feel like I do SOMETIMES but for the most part I could do without having a kid. I know unless one of us is unknowingly infertile we're going to have kids. I just feel like I'm going to be overly controlling. There are so many ugly people in the world there's no avoiding them. I don't want my kids to have to deal with ignorant people or worse become one and if they became one; I would want nothing to do with them and it's probably terrible to say but I would feel like what was the point of having them; if that were to happen.