I can't cry anymore no more tears 😭 can even come out . WARNING VENTING

So pineapple and pressed both don't work for me af came to visit and kinda upset but hey what can I do I prayed every night I took the vitamins I needed to take bd every day while I was on vacation with df and for what like this is really depressing it's like  people that don't even won't kids are getting pregnant people having an abortion and then the next month getting pregnant again like I don't understand it's like god is punishing me for having an abortion when I was an teenager and like now that I'm ready financially emotionally and physically nothing happens I just don't know what to do at this point I think I just really need to work on me my df really thought this month was it to had all the symptoms just to find out it was just for nun does anyone have any tips at all I'm going to try one more time and if nothing then I'm done