*DISCLAIMER* ITS A LONG MESSAGE

So I'm 17 years old & starting dating this guy when I was 14. When we got together, it was like love at first sight... 2-3 months into the relationship he said "I love you" first.. (Mind you its puppy love) & we weren't really able to hang out because my parents are really strict. So we had a high school relationship for about a year & 7 months. When that year & 7 months was up, we broke up for the first time because he said I was dragging him down. & I was because I couldn't see him outside of school & it really bothered him & myself. The day we broke up, I come to find out that he got back together with his ex. (She was trying to get back with him since we starting dating) & I was so heartbroken. I got so mad at him & told him to break up with his ex and get back together with me. (& he did. Yes I know, I'm crazy) After about a week, we got back together & stayed together since... Well up until today...

You guys... I really love this guy... He is my one & only... He was there for me when no one else was... He held me every time I cried about something stupid... He talked to me about everything.. He would always do things without me asking... He took me out... He gave me massages.. He did everything & more... On Wednesday we starting talking about our internal problems & I just got so furious with him because he started pulling out my flaws & telling me to fix myself... We have been fighting for 4 days straight.. We have never fought for that long before.. An argument between us would last between maybe a day & a half. We would make up after that...

He said we are gonna take a break until I learn how to value myself, show him how important he is to me & I can better myself

My point is that, I really need help... I lost my best friend, my boyfriend, my only true friend, my shoulder to cry on,... My everything...

Can anyone give me advice please?

Anything would help... 😭😭😭