The Aftermath

I had an abortion in Saturday, May 27th. I think I've been dealing with it pretty well. Haven't cried, kinda talked about it, thought about it A LOT. But I haven't cried. I've been getting more notifications from my eve app and it's pregnant women and excited positive pregnancy test posting EVERYWHERE!!!! I want nothing but the best but how do I as a woman cope with those "empty" stomach feelings when you see a pregnant woman, a cute baby, just All the excitement that comes with children. How do I get past the I hope I meet my baby again when I can be better. These "empty" moments/aches are getting the best of me.