I backed out of my sons circumcision appointment

My first born son was circumcised in the hospital, at just a few days old. He only cried for a split second and was completely fine afterward. For some reason, they didn't circumcise my son who was born 4 weeks ago, so I would have to do it at his pediatricians office. His pediatrician doesn't numb, which just seemed so cruel to me, so I decided to find a different doctor that did. I made the appointment and was set to go in this morning, but spent all night googling and seeing the possible risks and I just couldn't bring myself to do it. So I will have one son who is circumcised and one who is not. Anyone else? I guess this will be a good way to see the difference.