Dealing With Emotions

I'm going through a really tough time right now and it seems like it's just getting worse and worse by the day and I really don't know what to do. Today I finally broke down and cried and I have a horrible headache and I feel so bad I kept apologizing to the baby for making him or her feel my pain and sadness I feel like a bad mom already. I'm just sooo hurt and I don't know what to do. 😪😪😪😪😪😪