The past 9 months I've waited for tomorrow (my due date) and now it's here Its only sunk in how quickly it's flown by. I still remember the day I seen his little 9 week old body on the scan monitor and when I listened to his heart beat for the first time.

We was so excited to be pregnant and looked forward to the 9 months but unfortunately it never went as exciting as we imagined..

All I've done is worry. I worried about money and how we were going to afford it when I'm on maternity, I stressed about my car as it broke loads throughout my pregnancy so that caused unnessesarry stress a lot of times.i worried myself to tears about misscarriage, then preterm birth, and now labour. I haven't spoke to my bump like I was told to do as i thought it was silly which makes me feel guilty now.

My son is due tomorrow and all I'm doing is worrying about the pain of labour when I should be excited!

Overall I really feel really upset that me and my partner haven't bonded with my pregnancy as much as we thought we would and now I'm at the finish line with my due date tomorrow I really wish I could turn back these past 9 months and do it all again. I feel like I've let my son down already and am having big time baby blues already and he's not even out yet.

All I can say to people after this is make sure you cherish every moment of pregnancy because it goes so quick and you really don't realise how much you would have wished you bonded with your bump. Take photos of your bump and speak to your babies all the time. I wish I had now.

I will be a much better mum to my son on the outside than I was when he was in here.

He is truly loved my all family I'm just gutted I didn't get that special bond because of my actions :(