How can I survive this? I wasn't even with the baby's father to begin with and now I'm soooooo freaking sad all the time now. I haven't even told my parents because I know of the judgment and anger they will have. I literally just moved back with them in August and now I feel like I need to move back out because I don't want to be a burden on them. I have a really great paying job and I can fend for myself, it's just that I moved back to help with their bills and now I feel like I've become a bill. I'm so scared and sad because I never wanted to have a baby at the age of 23 but now it's going to happen and I'm more than sad especially since I wanted to be married at least 2 years before I started. I don't believe in abortions so that's a no-go. Plus, I don't want to end up regretting it. But every time I think about the stress and the judgement that's going to come from everyone I know, I wish I was never pregnant. Sad part is I knew this would happen. I literally had a dream I was going to be pregnant about 1.5 years ago and I ignored it because of the many times I've already slipped up with my ex and not gotten pregnant. I feel so irresponsible and dumb. It hurts so much to have to go to these appointments alone. I'm just glad I have one person  I can talk to (who lives multiple states away) other than God, but it hurts SO much. Does anyone have advice? I need to know if I can actually do this on my own. Because I think I'll literally will be alone. 

*Update* Today is 10/17/17

I ended up telling my parents at 4 months and my dad took it well while my mom flipped on me. I’m almost 7.5 months now and they have both come to terms with it and are actually supportive. They still have their moments but what can I do? I ended up losing the good paying job i had but I got another one within the week. So I’m glad I ended up staying at home with them. The new job doesn’t pay as well and I have shorter hours, but it definitely is a job lol. Its still looking like I’m going to be a single parent but I’ve finally come to terms with it and am no longer super distraught over it. So I think it’s safe to say things are looking up. I’m still no where prepared for this baby as I only have a crib, some clothes, a nursing pillow, and diaper bag for him. I’m not having a baby shower (no one offered and I can’t afford to throw myself one) unfortunately so I will have to budget myself out for the rest of his immediate supplies. But other than that I would say things are WAYYY better than before. I will begin to see a therapist in the coming weeks in regards to the depression I’ve been in and out of and continue to work towards a healthy and happy baby and self! 🙂 Thank you guys so much!