Each time my baby cries and wakes me up i feel very angry and i cant control my self sometimes and i shush him and hold him hardly... Then i start crying cause i cant control my self and think on killing my self cause im so tired. I cant eat i am just not happy at all. I would have gone anonymously but i wont cause i really need someone to tell me what to do. I love my baby and i dont want to hurt him. Sometimes i feel he doesnt love me as a mom and rejects me. Please i dont need rude comments right now i beg for help please someone tell me what to do...