I finally gave birth a week ago and now that most of water weight came off and my uterus is shrinking down i feel fat and uglier than ever... i love my body for being able to produce the most beautiful being i have ever laid eyes on but you see i have bad self esteem issues along with depression so accepting my body this way is hard. I can not even look at myself in the mirror without completely hating myself. I try to put on old clothes and nothing fits... my husband tells me he wants me thin again because i look better and that he will pay anything to remove my stretch marks because they make my skin look ugly... i literally just can't. I have lost interest in myself and i have lost interest in the person that claims to love me. Never once has he complimented me or given me some kind of encouraging words that'd make me feel better. I don't know what to do to change his way of thought or to make him a more sensible man. I don't care what he says to me i just really want him to acknowledge me before i lose complete interest him. Talking to him about these things is asking for a fight... i am just lost...