Today my current mood is hating everyone and everything... it sucks that I'm going through my third miscarriage right now... but what sucks even more is I have to watch two people go through pregnancy at where I should be- my first pregnancy (took 2 years to get!) my friend got pregnant and we had the same due date July 1st (coming up!) I've watched her annouce, find out the gender and build a nursery.. my second pregnancy my conworker and best friend also got pregnant (Same due date again!)  she just announced to the world yesterday...I'm super happy for her but at the same time..I hate it, I hate that I'm bitter and hate that I have to watch yet another person be where I should be... I have since had a third pregnancy and loss, no same due date but our little cousin announced to us the day I found out I was miscarrying... I just don't understand.... why is this so hard? I'm so beyond depressed and have completely lost hope... I literally feel like I'm slowly dying...