It's been a rough year for my family. We are all going through so much . I don't know how to react towards my feelings or keep sane for my family.

You Know​ every family that has that ideal couple. I mean the couple you all admire and look up too. When it's issues with your relationship you seek advice from the couple. Now who do you run to when the perfect couple been falling apart for years without nobody knowing. I mean who do you run to when your whole life crashes .

I bend over backwards to keep my family happy. I sacrificed my dreams and myself to make my home happy. I tried to love my husband to death do us part. But now I have to live with what I always wanted but couldn't have from another woman who barely knows him.

My happily ever after was stolen from a man I trust . From a man whom swept me off my feet. From a man I thought will never hurt me so bad. From a man who once protect me. I tried giving my all to him but I jus couldn't give him his first boy . Whom am I to even be mad at her . It's not her fault he couldn't fight temptation. I did not walk down the ale with her. I did not built trust with her. I don't even know her. I am mad at myself because I can't walk away.

I hate I still love him . I hate I don't regret everything we done for each other. What am I supposed to do . When all I know was you and I .