Hi ladies! For the time being, i am ntnp (not trying not preventing) for the simple fact that i may be infertile considering I have been off birth control for a while (and over a yr ago i was off for 4 months) and never protected, never got pregnant. At the moment, i am not able to afford my "healthy" food i need to lose weight to be able to conceive. I'm just so scared that I may never be able to feel little baby kicks and wake up in the middle of the night to change diapers lol. My fiance always gets so happy when we talk about kids. I hate to let him down :( it seems so unfair that people who don't even want kids get pregnant so easily, and people with PCOS want kids ssooooo bad but may never be able to have them (or it can be really hard)! Ugh sometimes i get mad at myself because of it even though i know it isn't my fault.

Thanks for reading! Just needed a little venting tonight. Baby dust to all of you ladies 😊💜