Her father doesn't help much. Except discipline and playtime. He doesn't change her diapers, very rarely has her made her food, he doesn't put her to bed or wake up with her, he doesn't bathe her.

And I'm tired.

I am so so so tired. I have a constant headache, the smell or sight of food makes me sick so I have the hardest time cooking for the both of them(because heaven forbid I don't make him food too), I haven't slept good in months, I've been having severe pain from my endometriosis, and I really want a break...

I think back to before I had a baby, and I miss it so much a part of me wishes I could go back to it...

I love my daughter so much, she's 2 now and it breaks my heart because I don't want her to grow up.

But god I just need a break. I need to feel like I can rely on her dad to help me when it gets to a point where I just can't handle things. I wish he'd understand that I am not a machine, and being a dad is more than just playing with your kid!!!

I feel so hopeless... I want to have a week or two to myself, where I don't have to be a home or a housewife, because it's making me miserable. :(