Miloh was my miracle baby. When I found out I was pregnant we were shocked because I was waiting for my period to start taking clomid. He was a crazy baby, he was always moving. He was always so perfect at every appointment, no sign whatsoever something terrible was going to happen. On april 25th 33 weeks exactly he moved all day like usual kicking in my ribs so hard! That night around 11 he was kicking so I couldn't sleep. I finally fell asleep till 2. I felt like I had to go to the bathroom I tried but nothing but my stomach started to hurt. I got in the shower that usually helps and Miloh loved when I was in there, I sang a song to him and rubbed my stomach. I tried again to go to the bathroom but I felt so terrible and I couldn't go. I figured I'll lay on the floor or get in the shower again. I had a bad feeling. So I got in the shower but I layed and just used the shower head to run water on myself. I felt a gush and I looked down and saw blood. I thought maybe I was in labor. He was my first baby. I got up as fast as I could I didn't even dry off I just started putting my clothes on. I felt another gush when I put my pants on at that point I was really nervous and hoping everything was okay I ran to my boyfriend. He was asleep so I turned the light on and yelled we needed to go to the emergency room. He was a little irritated at the time. But we left right then and drove as fast as we could and I got put in a chair and when I was told to get up to get weighed their was a lot pf blood in my chair so they rushed me to get his heartbeat checked. It came up 150 ( turned out to be mine) we went to go have him! We were so excited and nervous. I was getting an emergency c section and was getting ready to get an epidural. Then they told my boyfriend to leave I got scared and confused. They told me they needed to put me out. I woke up in a blur. Only thinking about Miloh. I started asking where he was. And saying I wanted him. They said he was in the nicu but thats all they could say. I was so frustrated I'm his mom, I shouted is he okay?! Can I see him? I started trying to get up I needed to see him. They wouldn't let me and said they'd take me to my room. Only my mom and my boyfriend were in the room. They looked at me weird. I knew something was wrong. I started asking how he was. My boyfriend said you dont know? My heart dropped. He told me he passed away and I started yelling no. My soul felt like it was being torn out of my body. My precious angel was gone and there was nothing I could do. I held my boy as much as I could for my hospital stay and took as many pictures as I could. I am so thankful for my and my boyfriend's family they are so kind and supportive. We will always love and miss our miracle born asleep. April 26 4:26 Miloh Walter Jahsman came and left this world but left and imprint on so many hearts.I wish he came his due date june 14th, but he had to make an entrance. Id love to hear any other mommy's story's of loss. Only love and support here💖💖