this is the hardest thing that i have to do

For a while now things have been very shaky between my mother and I, arguing multiple times a week and all kinds of negativity. As much as I love her I'm just done having to change myself to fit into her world when she's not even remotely willing to fit into reality. I'm tired of her verbally attacking me and turning around and acting like she the victim and trying to force me to apologize to her for it. What hurts the most is all of this is happening as my so and i are talking about/planning on getting married and moving with friends to Arizona. So now not only are we having to deal with that but we have no choice but to pack up my things here at my parents and moving it and our rv that we live in on to my friends property (hopefully that is). My heart is so broken right now. All I want to do is stay in bed for as long as possible and cry my eyes out.