culture

As an older sister in a Latina I clash so much with my culture and the now. For example I'm all about figuring myself out pero like I share a room w 2 of my younger siblings. Sooo I can't  comfortably try masterbating. Also, when I go out I feel guilty because as an older sister I've learned that in a sense I'm their second mom and i must be here to raise them too... does anyone else feel like this?