Miscarriage with my first 😔 (My Story)
I was only a like 2-3 weeks so I feel like my pain isn't as bad as others, but that was my first 😔
My boyfriend was at work when I found out I was pregnant. I was so damn happy 🤗. I didn't tell him till he got home. Everyone (his sister, brother, and sister in law) was there and they had no idea. I told my baby to sit down I had some news for him. When I told him he was so happy too 😁
We were already looking at clothes and bottles 😂 but we were just so excited. Our first baby, with the man I wanna be with for the rest of my life. The one I was with since my sophomore year in high school. We won prom king & queen together.
And we were expecting a prince/princess...
I even talked to my baby & my (future) sister-in-law was telling me that the baby didn't even have ears yet 😂
A week later, I was at work, and I just got in so much pain. Like I was laying on the floor crying begging for my baby to be okay. I told my boss I had to leave and she said of course. Go to the hospital and they say my blood levels went down a lot. I just started balling in the room. My boyfriend was so heart broken 😔 not to mention Mother's Day was less then a week away 😔😭💔
No one really knew how to comfort me, just kept saying "it's Gods plan baby." Or "just try again in a few years." Or "you were to young, and not ready anyways." Ugh 😪 I kinda just keep my pain buried (not gona lie, a blunt here and there helped wit my depression). Now I pretty much just smile and try not to think about it. But I do feel empty and different 😓
I just want my rainbow baby & feel good again
~Mommy with a baby in heaven👼🏼~
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