I just want her back šŸ’”

britt ā€¢ mommy to one preemie on earth and three angels in heaven and finally got my rainbow baby :}
every night I wake up at 5 am and I either stay up or cry myself to sleep. 5 am was the time she was born šŸ˜”, I sleep with her blanket every night and everytime I lay my head down I hear the rhythm of her heartbeat. I just want my baby back! I would do anything just to hold her one last time šŸ˜„