can't do it anymore

Nicole • I'm 17
I can't... this is just bs 
My mom leaves me with no food in the house and I need food or I start to shake or get sick and she knows 
I try to at least make pancakes only thing we have here. And i burn them. Idk how to cook but I tried 
I called my bf he's just yelling at me saying I don't listen and when I said what he gets mad because I asked what.he broke out over the phone So I asked to repeat he gets mad and then when I say something he didn't here me I say never he yells at me 
I'm in fucking tears while writing this and I just can't do it anymore. 
No one cares about what I need 
Idk how to cook.