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Then one Saturday we were fooling around and I had a gush of fluid, nothing too awful, just thought it was normal drainage. It had no odor, I had no blood so I didn't worry about it. The next night I started to have light cramps and I was still having drainage. I am a nurse so I had researched the drainage and it sounded like lots of women had normal discharge during pregnancy. Well I woke up Monday morning (which was Memorial Day) still cramping. When I went to the bathroom, I could feel something in my vaginal cavity, it felt like little legs. My husband and I rush to the ER, the L&D nurses feel the same thing I do. My baby boy had a heart beat still, a very good one at 160. I ended up becoming high risk with a fever and was transferred to another hospital to deliver. Thankfully I was able to deliver vaginally with only IV pain medication even though it hurt like hell. My husband and I got to hold our sweet baby until we discharged the next day. 

My heart is still broken, the pain hurts so bad emotionally, but I wanted to let all you ladies know, hearing your stories and sharing in your pain has helped me to cope and heal. I honestly am glad to not be the only one who feels this heart wrenching, soul shattering pain. I may not know any of you personally but I know your hurt and pain, and I'm thankful we can share with one another and bear each other's burdens. I am so sorry we all have to go through this type of pain, but I'm thankful to have others that understand how I feel. Thank you for reading ❤️