I take adderall during school to focus and this week was my first week off. I have ate enough to feed a small family for a month in one week. I am gonna get so fat I already have so much self hate a guilt from the past couple days. Luckily I'm fucking this guy who tells me I'm hot all the time but I'm scared he's gonna stop. I really want to cry rn. I was cute when I was like 115 but it is so much work to keep my weight down. I need to get my life together again.😭😭😭😭 Everyone say bye bye to my bod.