Venting just trying to release my overwhelming emotions

Hi everyone... My husband and I have been ttc over 2yrs and 6 months ago we decided to go and see a fertility clinic... We had a few procedures done like Hsg fasting early cycle lab test ultrasounds (vaginal)... post ovulatory lab test and my husband sdi test... Considering none of this is covered by our insurance but that doesn't matter to us is having that chance of getting pregnant... But all this is taking a toll on my emotions... I'm afraid of the results I'm afraid not being able to give my husband that baby we both have been praying for and it gets me depressed but at the same time we need to know if we are or not going to become parents... Soon we will find out.. Hoping this will make us stronger and not break us... 😭