Idk where to start .. it's not an easy subject for me .. so back in march I had a miss miscarriage .. I had gone in for a regular check up n heard my little ones heart beat .. 3 weeks later when I went back unfortunately there was no heart beat .. at that moment I felt numb .. I couldn't cry I had hopes that doctors would tell me we see the heart beat .. but after 10 minutes nothing .. I went in for a DNC a few days later .. I had so many complications that I honestly thought I was not gonna make it .. I was in the hospital for 3 days .. it's a horrible feeling leaving the hospital empty handed .. I cried for weeks blaming my self n asking my self what did I do wrong .. I know my little one is in a better place .. but the pain never goes away .. not one day goes by that I don't think of my little one .. I had given up on trying again .. yesterday I went to the clinic for a check up n a nurse walks up to me n says congratulations .. at that moment I had no idea what she was talking about .. then she told me ur pregnant .. I couldn't believe it .. my rainbow bby is on its way 🌈 .. I couldn't believe it so I had to take a home pregnancy test .. I still can't stop crying 💕