Seriously, how do you carry on being so disappointed every month? Like the need to be pregnant is huge, a woman who is TTC just wants it to happen and when it doesn't, it's like a stab in the Chest several times. The amount my mood changes from happy to sad to angry because when my mind is of TTC for a little while I'm happy, but when it always comes back I'm sad, I'm angry and I get this feeling of sadness right in the pit of my stomach. When we were younger, we were told having a baby is so easy. Here I am nearly a year down the line and haven't conceived. Here you all are, some longer, some before who haven't yet conceived and are so desperate for it. Some don't drink, smoke, nothing and don't conceive when it's the only thing we want in this world. How unfair. I'm literally letting out how I feel right now because that feeling of sadness in the pit of my stomach, throats and head is there. I just want to feel my baby, I want to know he/she is there so I can wait for him/her to arrive. Buy all the stuff. Be prepared within months like I know I'll be with excitement. I want to see the look on my partners face when I tell him (I know he will cry, breakdown) I want to experience the labour without loosing my child (long story)