What do you think..

Okay so, my boyfriend & I have been together 3 years but have lived together for a little over a year. We have been working on our sex life.. Trying to make it 'better' I guess? (I wouldn't ever get to finish, it only happened once every 2 weeks, ect). I eventually found out he was addicted to pornography, broke me in half. Since then, he has done better with not watching it as often(he wanted to quit on his own, I did not make him). So anyway, I was explaining last week that I don't want him to be masterbating all the time only because they I am not getting sexually pleased. If he could handle pleasing me in the sheets & jerking off, fine! But until I am happy, I feel that it's only fair.. I understand him doing it if I'm not available, but I am always available to him. Yesterday, I found our lube on the bathroom counter. He forgot to put it up before I got home. I didn't put up a fight. I just calmly said, "why is our lube in the bathroom?" He didn't say anything, just walked in there to use the restroom & next thing I know it's moved into a drawer. I don't know why I'm so upset about it.. But I am. We haven't had sex in a week, I was really looking forward to it. Now I want nothing to do with him. I feel like he isn't trying. Am I crazy for being this way? What is wrong with me? I know that masterbation is healthy & I completely agree. But I feel as if I have a right to be upset since it's causing pain for me. I don't know. I would really like to know what you all think, as honest & brutal as it may be. 
Thank you in advance..