Im litterly sitting in the rain crying. I had the possibility of being pregnant. But i found out im 100% not. All i can think about is what my little girl would look like around 3. I can picture her chubby red cheeks from her dads side and her dark black hair from mine or maybe itll be brown. Or her eyes maybe theyll be grey like mine or hazel like her daddy. Or my son. Maybe hell look like his daddy or maybe like his grandpa.

I want to be woken up all night

I want to be exhausted. When i watch. A baby for over night maybe for a day or a week i can't help but to wish for one of my own. And its killing me inside.