I don't know what to do

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I think I have to break up with him. My boyfriend is so loving and wonderful but when I think about him I just want to cry. I can't keep hurting him. I shut him out a lot and I get so anxious. He knows I have bipolar but still..I can't handle the stress I feel when I treat him so horribly when I'm extremely depressed. I think I need to do it.