So ive always been the ugly friend or at least the one guys never wanted to talk to. When i was 15 i had my first boyfriend & he raped me. I dated another guy that i didnt even like for like a month 2 years later during my senior year of high school but other than that i just wasn't involved with any guys. I started finding myself at 18 coming to terms finally with my past & moving on from it. At 19 i lost my virginity to a friend who became my fwb absolutely great experience. Fast forward to now, almost 11 months later, ive been with 9 guys, & i feel really lost. I don't mind hooking up but im almost 20 i feel like i need to at least try a relationship but it scares me i don't like clingy romantic shit. Help?!?!