I'm just sad awaiting my miscarriage to happen

I'm trying not stress myself out but it's difficult when I know I'm supposed to miscarry any day now according my my doctor and I haven't. I just want it to happen so I can get it over with and move on with my life. Thursday night was a sad night as I found out.... yesterday was a good day as I had some pink spotting 2-3 times mid morning so I thought period was coming... but nothing since. And I keep stupidly going to google for answers and scaring myself.... ughhhh so here I am at 4:30a.m wallowing in sadness and fear on Glow. This f******* SUCKS!! 😥😥😥